September 2022

September 25, 2022

I am starting this diet because I am desperate for change, and after reading the article in Woman's World, I am feeling slightly motivated. My starting weight of 234.1 is bad, but not as bad as I thought it would be. I know what it is, and I allowed this to happen. I need to take back control and stop letting all of the other things around me take precedence. This is my rock bottom...

I have ordered aids to help me in this...ketone urine sticks and a keto blood monitor. I will record the results daily. My plan is to weigh in only on Sundays and Wednesdays, but I am sure I will weigh in daily for the first couple of weeks to see if I am making any progress and what might need to change in my diet. My rating time will be between 11 and 12 daily unless there is a change in schedule due to meetings, etc.  

I ate a large salad from Salad and Go  and drank a cup of coffee with milk today. I began my lunch hour at 11:37 and got preoccupied, so I had to guzzle my coffee and milk in the last 3 minutes of the hour...

Bedtime check in: I am feeling good...no cravings

September 26, 2022

I woke up this morning with that empty gnawing feeling in my stomach. I laid there for about 5 minutes worrying that I wasn't going to be able to make it until lunch at 11 this morning. I then forced myself out of this mindset and looked up what might be causing that...aside from hunger!  When in doubt, research! Apparently it is caused by a hormone that is released into your system called Ghrelin/

Ghrelin is a multifaceted gut hormone which activates its receptor, growth hormone secretagogue receptor (GHS-R). Ghrelin's hallmark functions are its stimulatory effects on food intake, fat deposition and growth hormone release. Ghrelin is famously known as the “hunger hormone”.

So I read this, drank some water and decided to push through. I got my ketone urine analysis sticks last night and they are showing trace amounts of ketones in my urine.

5:15PM: I used a ketone urine analysis stick and my level is at 15!! This was a huge pick me up! I stepped on the scale and it reads 229.8.  I am well aware this is water weight, but I will take it! I ate lunch from 11:00 -12:00 and had another salad from Salad and Go. I was supposed to eat a skillet creation today, but I stayed late at work and this was easier. I drank tea and coffee sans milk throughout the day, but I was so happy to have that cup of coffee with milk at lunch!

Bedtime check in: Still feeling good...no cravings

September 27, 2022

I woke up feeling ok today! No empty stomach!  I got my KetoBM today, so I will be able to record that result!

10:00AM: Urine Analysis shows I am at level 4.0: Moderate at the heart of it all!  KetoBM result was .6 which means ketosis is starting

Lunch was between 11:05 and 12:05 today. I had looked at the menu last night and thought they were going to have something that they didn't have.  Though disappointed, I made a large salad and used deli meats and eggs for protein. I also had a small plate of broccoli florets and of course, my cup of coffee with milk!

2:30PM: KetoBM is reading .8...still in the beginning of ketosis

Bedtime check in: I didn't get enough protein...that hormone is running amok in my system. My stomach feels empty and I really want something to eat!  I am going to drink some water and go to bed!

September 28, 2022

I used an entire pack of blood monitoring strips yesterday trying to find the optimum time to check! I woke up ok this morning and am planning to push through! 

6:30AM: Weigh in went well...I am going down which is what I want to happen! I weighed in at 230.5. Yes it is up from yesterday, but you always drop a lot of water in the beginning and then it stabilizes

8:00AM: Blood Analysis shows me at 1.1. I am excited! This means I am already in Optimal Nutritional Ketosis! My body is officially burning fat for energy!

10:45AM: Urine Analysis shows I am at 8.0 which means large amount of ketones are present in my urine!

11:30 I did not have my usual time for lunch today, but my goal was still to get it eaten and back on fasting within an hour. I ate 2 slices of roast beef from the deli and a salad from Salad and Go...plus my coffee and milk! We had an early release day today, so students were in carpool when I needed to start in order to finish in an hour before we were scheduled to go into a meeting at 12:30. My goal was to eat what I could before the meeting, but I ended up having to help out and was away from my desk from 11:45-12:10...might be another hungry night!

I had to rush through lunch, so I didn't get to finish my salad...but I did get to finish my coffee with milk...priorities!  I ended up throwing away approximately 1/2 cup of salad and veggies, but I ate all the protein...I think. I am too soon into the diet to mess with the fasting hours, so I will just think of this as a semi-fasting day. I plan to do a full fasting day at least once a month...this is my September fasting day!

2:30PM: Urine Analysis is showing darker...I would say color is between Large 8.0 and Large 16...stomach is actually feeling full. 

2:30PM: Blood Analysis shows me down some at .9 which means I am back in the category of nutritional ketosis starting...research shows this level will go down after a meal, but will rise once your body has burned through the ingested calories and fat...I'm in an ok mindset! Life is going to throw some curves. 

Bedtime check in: I am feeling some hunger pains, and I was sick to my stomach earlier, but I am doing ok. Tomorrow is another day.

September 29, 2022

I am so tired today. I was nauseated yesterday afternoon and last night, and to be blunt, the keto diarrhea, now referred to as kd, has set in...no one tells you about this part! I wasn't able to get to sleep until three this morning, only to have my sunrise alarm start to brighten my bedroom at 4:45...this day has been an exercise in stamina. I have only had my black coffee, 3 waters and Diet Pepsi to drink outside of lunch, but I feel dehydrated as the kd is messing with my system. For lunch I had a slice of beef, a salad, carrots and broccoli and cauliflower. I also had my coffee with 2% milk.

6:30AM weigh in shows me at 231.4, which is an overall loss of 2.7.

8:00AM: Blood Analysis shows my ketone levels at 1.4

10:30AM: Urine Analysis shows me between 6.0 and 8.0

 I admit, I was hoping for more of a loss this week, but there are still two more days in the week.  Here's hoping I am able to get some sleep tonight.

September 30, 2022

I have had an interesting day. It started off stressful, made worse by a headache and general body aches today. My sleep is still off, but at least I got some sleep last night. I am definitely looking forward to the weekend! It might be my imagination, but the jeans I wore today were looser in the waist and butt area than when I wore them last week. From my research, you typically begin to burn the fat around your organs first, then comes the fat you can see...but the fat burning around your organs will make you look leaner.

I made a version of the Big Mac salad today for lunch. It had two hamburger patties, pickles, tomatoes, cheese, jalapeños, bacon, black beans and of course the salad staples of lettuce and cucumbers. I used bleu cheese dressing to top it off. It was pretty good, but I wasn't all that hungry. I ate the majority of it, and threw away maybe an eighth of a cup. I did not make my coffee with milk today, but I did drink about an eighth of a cup of milk...I just wasn't feeling it today, but I am pushing through! I haven't had any of the dreaded kd today, but I am feeling off so I am going to drink some water and go to bed.

October 2022

October 01, 2022

Keto flu is a real thing. I woke up with a bad headache and aches and pains again.  The positive of the day is I did get some sleep last night! Today is the official end of the first week of the Eat Like A Bear diet and I am happy to report I am down 3.7 pounds! 

I checked everything and weighed in at 8:33 this morning and the stats are: weight: 230.7 urine analysis: 4.0 and blood analysis: 1.4. Ironically, I checked my blood on a whim before bed last night and it was reading 1.7.

It's finally starting to get cooler here at night, so hopefully that will help with my sleep. Today's lunch is from Salad and Go and is a jalapeno ranch version with double steak and avocado for proteins. It's almost time to break my fast, but I am not really hungry...I might fast for a longer period today...

I ended up eating between 11:25 and 12:25. Instead of my coffee and milk, I had a chai tea latte. It was a nice change. KD came back this afternoon...I sure hope this is not going to become the norm.

October 02,2022

We went all summer long without fleas in the house and yard, and have even gone two years without them, only to get them within the last month...why am I typing this? I am typing this because I woke up at 4:30 with one inside my shirt tickling me...the flea medicine is working on the dogs and cats, and they are not biting, but they do tickle!

Anyway, I have been reading all morning so I didn't record my stats until 10:00 this morning. I am loving the stats today! My weight is down to 229.5 (a 4.6 pound weight loss), my urine analysis is up at 8.0 and my blood analysis is at 2.1 (I had to take this three different times because I couldn't believe the number)! To be fair, the weight loss is still probably water weight, but maybe not...the shirt I was wearing to bed last night was looser, no longer hugging the body.

Today's lunch ended up being between 11:50 and 12:50, and I ate the majority of a Thai salad from Salad and Go, The proteins in it are grilled chicken and buffalo chicken, and the fats are avocado and mozzarella cheese. The dressing is a Thai peanut dressing. This is one of my favorite salads! I also drank about an eighth of a cup of 2% milk. I honestly couldn't push myself to eat the entire salad, although I did eat that size salad yesterday. I ate the majority of the lettuce, but left most of the protein and fats. I just wasn't that hungry today. I am going to be lazy for the rest of today and just read and play catch up on journaling, so unless something big happens, I will check in tomorrow.

I can say this, I am no longer waking hungry and I am not counting the minutes until it is time to eat...I feel perfectly fine...other than the flu like feeling, but that will hopefully go away soon!

October 03, 2022

My oldest dog, Trapper, got a new harness this weekend and would not let me go to sleep without trying it out on a walk last night...at 8:30 PM! It was at least cool outside and he wasn't pulling me as much as he usually does!

My stats were good again today, my weight is coming down and I am in ketosis! I would like to say I can feel the fat melting off my body, but alas, all I can see is that my pants are getting a little looser! In all of these years of dieting, I never really knew how you lost the fat on your body, but I do now! 

Your body must dispose of fat deposits through a series of complicated metabolic pathways. The byproducts of fat metabolism leave your body: As water, through your skin (when you sweat) and your kidneys (when you urinate). As carbon dioxide, through your lungs (when you breathe out).

I just thought when you exercised or did sit ups, the fat was turned into muscle...that's what I was always told growing up! It's kind of cool how you actually lose it!

Today I woke up with no hunger pains, and for the first time in awhile, no body aches and I even had some energy!

Today's lunch hour was between 10:53 and 11:53. I had Italian sausage with grilled peppers and onions, roasted asparagus, broccolini, steamed cabbage and part of the leftover fats and proteins from yesterday's salad. As the grand finale, I made a chai latte! I am feeling really good about my stats today, and am hoping to make that 10 pound loss by my Sunday weigh in!

It's going to be a long day at work again today, but at least the food portion is done and I can move on!

October 04, 2022

I woke up tired today. Trapper barked nonstop all night long. He finally got quiet around two this morning. I hate water weight fluctuations!! When I weighed in this morning, I was up two pounds. My urine analysis still showed at 8.0 and my blood analysis was at 2.5, so I'm not concerned. I did however want it to be a minus...not a plus!

Lunch today was between 11:05 and 12:05. I ate fried pork belly, taco meat mixed with shredded cheese and guacamole, beef fajita strips and for my vegetables, I had seared green beans and roasted cauliflower. I also had a café au lait as my drink...I kind of missed the chai tea! I am stuffed. I figured yesterday I went heavy in the veggies department, so today I would go heavy with protein.

I am very happy that we have tomorrow off! I will probably fast until 12:00 tomorrow and give my body a little extra push. One and done is such a relief...I no longer have to worry about my meals and what I am going to eat, or eat just because it is expected and not because I am hungry.  My goal remains the same...I am hoping to have dropped ten pounds by the end of this week.

October 05, 2022

Today has been something. There were highs and lows found throughout the day. Last night my feet were so swollen I had to take two water pills before bed, and after a late night walk with Trapper, the hunger hormone returned. I just made some chamomile tea and went to bed! I also had my first set of cravings since last week...I think I am more susceptible when I am tired. Trapper barked all night Monday so there wasn't much sleep. I powered through and just went back to reading my novel. This is the month of horror, vampire, ghosts, witches and werewolves and I love reading these kinds of books during October!

So today was my official mid-week weigh in day, although I know I am weighing daily, but that will taper off when I am sure I am going the right way with this diet. I am still in the figuring it out stage of this diet and I haven't lost enough to be able to afford an oops moment. Today's urine analysis showed me at Large 16, which is the maximum level you can reach. I of course went on the internet to find out exactly what this meant for my system, and this is what I found out:

What does it mean if my Keto Urine Testing Strips read High Large 16.0? Your body is now discarding an extra large amount of ketones into your urine. This might mean your body is yet to become efficient at burning them or that you are producing too many ketones and can increase your carbs slightly. 

Now, I am not wanting to add more carbs at this time, but I am not going to feel guilty over my milk anymore!

My blood stats were in a nice range as well. I tested at 2.6 today. So, What is the ideal ketosis level for weight loss? According to Healthline:

After starting the keto diet, it takes your body a few days to burn through its carbs, which are stored as glycogen in your liver and muscles. Once these carb stores are gone, you’ll switch to producing ketones from either dietary fat or stored body fat to burn as energy.

At that point, you may have detectable levels of ketones in your blood. Blood ketone levels while on the keto diet typically range from 0.5 – 3.0 millimoles per liter (mmol/L).

These levels are the optimal range for nutritional ketosis — the state in which your body can use stored fat for energy most effectively, helping boost weight and fat loss.

So, I am in ketosis...which is great. Although, I am not sure if I am burning the fat I am eating, or the fat I have stored in my body, or both!

Now the weight loss portion of the day wasn't great, and this is where the disappointment comes in! I was hoping to be seven or eight pounds down, but I'm not. I am still going down, but only by tenths. I weighed in at 227.2 this morning which is a total loss of 6.9...close to seven, but not close enough for me.

I know, I am being hard on myself...I have only been on this diet for a week and a half and I want to be successful at it, and I have a lot of fat to burn!

For lunch today, I had a double cheeseburger in lettuce wrap with onions, tomatoes, mustard, Salsa Verde and pickles. I also had a half cup of mixed vegetables (asparagus, carrots, green beans and corn) and a serving of pork rinds as an alternative to fries. For my daily milk intake, I had my café au lait...or coffee with milk.

My lunch hour was between 12:00 and 1:00 today. I wasn't really hungry, but today was not my fasting day...that will be on October 24 when I have officially been on the diet for a month. I could have eaten more than the eight pork rinds I allotted for my lunch today, which is why I stopped eating before I got that stuffed feeling. I have a little bit of a headache today, but I am probably just dehydrated. I only had two cups of coffee today and some water. I've been busy reading a werewolf book and The Shining by Stephen King! Off to drink some water!!

October 06, 2022

I really have to change my weigh in days!! Every time, I lose more weight the day after the weigh in...I mean, come on!! I am happy to report that as of 6:30 this morning, I am down 9.3 pounds! I might make that two week/ten pound weight loss after all!

I was hungry this morning, but I think that is due to, once again...exhaustion. Trapper is probably in the last year of his life and can no longer...or won't come up the stairs anymore. So every morning around 1:00 he begins a barking fest that lasts at least an hour...Ironically, he didn't do it yesterday morning...only on the days I have to get up early!

Back to the hunger issue...I have a moment of bragging to do...one of my adorable former students came in my office with a donut she bought for me...she is a sweetie! In the past, I would have eaten that donut, ended up with acid reflux, and felt guilty after...today, I wasn't even tempted! And that is another thing...since I began this diet, I have gone from having horrible daily acid reflux and living on acid reducer, to no acid reflux! I am very grateful for that!

Today's lunch was between 11:00-12:00...I have come to realize I actually prefer to eat later, but that 11:00-11:30 is when lunch is lower school is served, and if you wait until later, pickings are slim. I had herb roasted chicken, steamed carrots and a medium side salad. I had gone almost all week without eating a salad...I think I am developing an aversion to them! But, I finished most of it!

October 07, 2022

Not much going on today. I got some sleep last night, but I am still tired. I took half a day off of work...I needed some time to myself. I ended up running by the library and to the grocery store. It is going to be a three day weekend, so needed to get some odds and ends.

Today's stats were a mixed bag for me. In weight, I was up 1.8 pounds but my blood and urine analysis was also up, which is a good thing.

For lunch, I ate between 11:00 and 12:00 and had 2 cheeseburger patties wrapped in green leaf lettuce with onions and tomatoes, 1 pickle slice and some pork rinds. I also had my café au lait.

October 08, 2022

I was so tired, I slept in until eleven tis morning and I feel a little better! I wasn't hungry today, and almost made it a fasting day. I ended up eating between 1:20 and 2:20. I ate 2 thick cut bologna slices, 2 Colby jack slices and one tomato slice wrapped in iceberg lettuce, 2 baby dill pickles, pork rinds and salsa Verde and a café au lait. It wasn't a healthy meal, but it was filling.

Today was the end of two weeks on the Eat Like A Bear diet, and I am officially down 9.5 pounds! I was hoping for at least 10, but I will take it! Blood and urine analysis were about normal for me...8.0 and 2.6.

I spent the day resting and reading...and I loved it!

October 09, 2022

My weight is barely fluctuating at this point...still up and down. I did take my dog on a long walk today...my feet are burning (wrong shoes), but Trapper is happy! I ate healthier today. I had a large serving of mixed vegetables, a hamburger patty and baby shrimp marinated in lime juice and chili peppers...when I get a chance to cook, I do it well! I ate between 1:20 and 1:50 and drank some milk...I did not have any coffee today. 

October 10, 2022

My numbers weren't making sense today. My blood analysis and urine analysis were down from where they had been, although still in ketosis and my weight is back up 1.3 pounds. The only thing reason I can think of is I had corn, a lot of it, in my mixed veggies yesterday and corn is a starchy vegetable. I am staying in calorie range and am fasting at least 23 hours...sometimes longer. I have walked my dog every day during this break as well as grocery shopping.

Today's lunch was earlier, between 11:20 and 11:50. I had a salmon fillet on a bed of cilantro lime cauliflower rice, asparagus spears, and a zucchini and  squash spear. I did not have milk today. We will see what happens tomorrow.

October 11, 2022

I fear I am in a weight loss plateau. Numbers are down and up depending on the day. If I lose, it is tenths of a pound. I have been researching and I still am not sure what I am going to do. The weird thing is the blood and urine analysis numbers are going up at night, when in the past couple of weeks, they tended to be at their highest mid-morning.

Today I ate lunch between 11:00 and 12:00. I made a salad with a mixture of chicken and beef strips as protein, and used avocado ranch dressing. I got busy at work and ran out of time for my café au lait, and only drank a sip or two. I am hoping by going back to more salads for awhile, and saving weekends for the meats and vegetables, I will get back on track.

Trapper got his long walk tonight, so he is a happy puppy...and I got some exercise! Fingers crossed about tomorrow!

October 12, 2022

After returning to the tried and true really big salad yesterday, and taking Trapper for a nice long walk, it looks like I am back in business. My numbers were good today, and I am finally over the ten pound weight loss mark. If I want to stay on my weight loss streak, I will need to lose at least an additional three pounds by Saturday.

I ate lunch today between 10:55 and 11:55. I had a repeat of yesterday's really big salad and some milk.

October 13, 2022

Today was a great numbers day! I was down an additional 2.9 pounds today which put me at a 13.2 pound weight loss. I got my flu shot yesterday and I am feeling like a truck ran me over. 

I ate lunch today between 11:10 and 12:10 and made a chipotle bowl with ground beef, shredded cheese, cilantro lime cauliflower rice, lettuce, tomatoes, corn, black beans and sour cream and guacamole as the dressing. I also had some milk. On Saturday, I will begin the Eat Like A Bear Six Week Challenge...and I am going to give it my all!

October 14, 2022

I still feel like I have been run over by a truck! I went to bed early last night, but woke up at ten, had a hard time falling back to sleep, woke up at two, fell back asleep at five...so I am running on fumes today! I was so tempted to pull the covers back over my head!

Today's lunch was between 11:05 and 12:05. I had a similar chipotle bowl as yesterday, minus the corn, black beans and milk. 

October 15, 2022

Weight is creeping up...not sure why...while I am up a couple of pounds, my KUA/KBM numbers say I am in ketosis. I begin the Eat Like A Bear six week challenge today and my goal is to lose thirty pounds by November 26. I have to figure out what is going on with the weight issue so I can do this. I am really hoping this is water weight, but we will see.

I made a really good accidental chili today. I put in leftover ground beef, and added some more, into a pot, added riced veggie blends spicy Mexican style, water, habanero chili peppers, zucchini and squash slices and spicy taco seasoning. Once it was finished, I added more shredded cheese, sour cream and guacamole to my bowl! It was delicious!

I ate lunch between 12:15 and 1:15 and had my accidental chili and coffee with half and half. 

October 16, 2022

My lupus is flaring up and I am not feeling good. I was only down a tenth in weight loss today, other numbers still show ketosis. I made a salad today with ground beef, shredded cheese, zucchini and squash sliced up, guacamole and avocado ranch dressing. I ate between 11:45 and 12:45 and ate the lettuce and some of the protein/veggies, but I wasn't really hungry. I ended up leaving behind a lot in the bowl, but Jenny ate the protein mix for dinner...so it wasn't wasted.

I ended up sleeping pretty much the entire day...so not off to a great start with the six week challenge! Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day!

October 25, 2022

I have been taking a break from journaling. Honestly, it was getting a little depressing there for a bit with the scale inching up, but I seem to have turned it back to going in the direction I need it to. I have hit the magical 15 pound weight loss as of today...next marker 20!

I have introduced a new item into my diet...keto friendly chocolate peanut butter cheesecake...there are ways to get that sweetness without losing momentum. You should never feel like you are depriving yourself. I will include the recipe on the Recipes Page! We are also having a Sweet and Salty day at work on Friday, so I needed to come up with something I could eat!

I have been introducing cauliflower pizza to my diet and it has been a nice change. The tattoo chef pizza bowl and cauliflower bowl is no Bueno though. It is just small cauliflower bites...not even riced...either covered in Velveeta cheese or tomato sauce, mozzarella cheese with faux pepperoni...the pizza bowl is slightly better than the mac and cheese bowl, but both are high in carbs, so you have to watch the portions...you can't eat the entire bowl and maintain your carb balance for the day.

I did get ingredients to make my own, and I am going to get some cauliflower crusts to make my own pizzas. Mission tortillas even have a carb balance flour tortilla that is low in carbs, so I can make a fajita...exciting opportunities are opening up!

October 31, 2022

Happy Halloween! I am down 16 pounds on scale, and enjoying my keto friendly treats on this Halloween day! I left my lunch at home today, so made do at work with pork loin and side salad. I feel like this month was a success...now on to November!

Thai Chicken Salad (mentioned on 10/2)

Keto Friendly Pumpkin Cheesecake Torte

November 2022

November 01, 2022

Well, I blew the diet yesterday...I was in a really good place, and someone brought me a finger...a shortbread cookie shaped like a finger and with my hormones out of whack, I ate the cookie and it was good!

I was also hungry last night...probably due to the sugar in my system, so I ate a piece of my keto friendly pb cheesecake and some pork rinds...while watching scary movies...Happy Halloween!

My urine keto sticks have been showing low for a few days, so I wasn't surprised with the .5 reading, but when I took my blood this am, it was .8...not too low under ketosis, but still, I am out of ketosis. My weight was down in water weight by .7 pounds, but will probably go back up for mid week weigh in tomorrow.

So, I blew it...but, it could be worse. I could let this set back, which I did to myself...with relish...completely derail me. I could use it as a way to switch to a diet that I had moderate success with in the past. I could even use it as an excuse to drop the diet all together and stay fat forever...what to do?

This is like those books we read to our 3rd and 4th graders...you read a brief story, and then you choose from 2-3 options on where the story needs to go next. I could choose from the above two options, or I can go with option 3: get back on ketosis and rejoin a diet that has been working. Maybe I need to stop being so hard on myself for messing up. Could I have done better yesterday? Absolutely!! I have said no to so many cookies and donuts in this past month with no regrets. I am not perfect and I am going to mess up. The numbers don't lie...I knocked myself out of ketosis. I am just lucky my binge fest didn't result in additional numbers on the scale...and they still might.

I am coming from a past with eating disorders...binging, over exercising, starving myself and even purging with laxatives...and if I am honest, I am close to falling back on that history. I have been using laxatives over the past 4 days...and with the binge yesterday, I felt as if I needed them more than ever. I am fat and I am tired of being fat. Losing 16 pounds is great...it is awesome...but in the grand scheme of things, it's not much when you are as fat as I am.

According to the chart below, I am supposed to weigh between 125 and 163. My goal weight was set for 145...now I realize, I need to set it at 135. This means I need to lose 98.9 pounds from my starting weight of 234.1. I have only lost 16.9 pounds...and yes, I realize I have only been on the diet for five weeks, but this is me and my impatient self.

Here’s a look at a range of heights and their healthy weight ranges based on BMI: 

4'10" 91-118

4'11" 94-123

5'0" 97-127

5'1" 100-131

5'2" 104-135

5'3" 107-140

5'4" 110-144

5'5" 114-149

5'6" 118-154

5'7" 121-158

5'8" 125-163

5'9" 128-168

5'10" 132-173

5'11" 136-178

6'0" 140-183

I am not healthy physically or mentally in regards to losing weight and I am trying to come at this from a healthier angle, but I am always going to fall back on bad habits if left up to my own devices. I have set a goal to have lost 30 pounds by November 26 and I am still hoping to meet this goal. I have 25 days. This will put me at 204.1 with 69.1 pounds left to lose to meet my target goal. I can't afford any more slip ups. Even after I lose those 30 pounds, I will still be fat...and I honestly don't know how much more I can cut out. I need to start adding exercise in, and that was a part of my six week plan, but I also don't want to add bulk in the form of muscles at this time.  

Anyway, today's plan is to cut out the snacks, eat my keto friendly lunch of two fajitas: fajita meat, fajita veggies sautéed in butter, cauliflower rice Spanish style, shredded Colby jack cheese, sour cream and guacamole on a low carb flour tortilla and roasted asparagus and get back on my fasting schedule. I am also going to make sure I take hourly walking breaks. I am supposed to walk at least 250 steps every hour per Fitbit...I would like to make that a mandatory 500 steps every hour for 10 hours...that gives me at least 5000 steps per day. If I make my 5000 steps before the 10 hour window, I will continue with the 500 steps...I start counting at 7:00 AM and 10 hours gets me to 5:00 PM...I should go for 12 hours, but baby steps.

November 02, 2022

I am still not back in ketosis, but I made over 7,439 steps yesterday. I had a snack last night which is not going to help me get back in ketosis. I have to do a hard fast and a ridiculously big salad...I am beginning to think the cheat day was not worth the trouble!!

I am ramping up the steps and arm weights this week...if I can't get back in ketosis through diet, at least I am getting some exercise, which should help in my weight loss. I took my ex*lax too late last night to do any good and was still cramping up with minimum purge this morning at work. I've not been on them long enough for me to build up a tolerance of the dosage, unless my body is in a remembrance phase...which isn't possible.

November 03, 2022

Yesterday I worked my butt off...Every hour on the hour I would jog to military cadences and get my heart rate elevated...and it worked! I logged 25 minutes of zone minutes, 9,076 steps and 2,479 calories burned. Today, my weight dropped 3 pounds and I am officially back in ketosis!! I am almost to my next marker of 20 pounds! Once I reach that marker, my next goal is 30 pounds...and so on, and so on!

I am physically tired today, but also buoyed by the number on the scale this morning! I don't think I will be having a cheat day in November...it wasn't worth the merry go round of emotions! To be fair, I am also wrapping up a period...I honestly thought I was done with those as it has been a year and a half since my last one...surprise! That also factored in water weight gain...or the lack of weight loss. And yes, I am still in the purging cycle...I still don't believe that using laxatives are just another form of bulimia. Bulimia is eating and throwing up immediately after...I maintain that using laxatives is just a helpful tool to rid the body of excess water...which with lupus aids in inflammation of joints. Since I have been using them regularly, my feet, ankles, wrists and joints aren't swollen and this is a good thing! My goal today is 10,000 steps and tomorrow 12,000...it's good to have goals!

November 04, 2022

So, yesterday was a heavy workout day...I ended with 44 zone minutes and 10,750 steps. I also lifted weights throughout the day. I was down a tenth of a pound this morning and my blood is showing barely there ketosis, but I also snacked last night...I really have to stop that. I pulled a groin muscle yesterday and was achy once I got home, so I might be amending today's step count. By 9am I have already reached 20 zone minutes and lifted weights. I am also on track for the 10,000 steps with 2,247 showing. I plan to work out during my lunch break today, so I should surpass the 44 minutes of yesterday.

So I decided to add a page describing the different types of eating disorders to my site along with a link to a test...Reading the different disorders has shown me that I have never gotten over my ed...I just switched disorders. I went from anorexia to bulimia to binging which is where I stayed up until 6 weeks ago. And, according to the test, I am showing signs of being ripe for an eating disorder at this time....so long as I get out of the binging weight gain phase, I am good! I am incredibly nauseated...too much coffee and the hot dogs were off...

November 05, 2022

This weekend I pushed hard...jogged Friday and Saturday. On Friday I made 12,209 steps and 72 zone minutes. On Saturday I made my 53 minutes of zone minutes, but only 3619 steps...Sunday was my easy day with only 18 zone minutes and 1393 steps. I was down 22 pounds yesterday, but up 1 today. My goals this week are to jog 5 days making 10,000 steps or 40+ minutes of zone minutes. I want to actually get out and pound the pavement instead of just running in circles or in place in the house or at work...but we will see.

I planned to work out today...jogging and lifting weights, but I admit, I am tired. I also took ex*lax too early today, so I spent the afternoon cramping...but you see, I was up almost a pound today and I need the scale to continue to go down! I also shouldn't have eaten as heavy as I did at lunch...small salad, my keto chili and a low carb flour tortilla with butter! My tummy was full...too full, hence the cramping this afternoon. I am hoping I can get in some exercise when I get home. I am feeling bloated.

November 06, 2022

The best laid plans never seem to come to fruition...I didn't go home and work out last night...I binged on pork rinds and 2 Atkins treats. I ended up taking another ex*lax. making it 3 for yesterday, because I was so bloated. I ended up with 7,198 steps and 9 zone minutes. Today I am going to hit 8,000 steps and 20 minutes of zone minutes. I am also going to eat my chili today and wait until 2 if I am feeling bloated to take my ex*lax. I lifted weights today, and the 5 pounders are getting easier to lift!

It's hard to not go ahead and take the ex*lax after lunch. My stomach is cramping and honestly, all I want to do is get rid of the food I ate during lunch. It's getting hard to want to eat, but then I know I need to, so I do...it's the binging in the evening when I am not hungry, but just want that chewing sensation that is not working. I need to look into sugar free gum.

November 07, 2022

I'm out of ketosis again...I got home, wasn't feeling great and ate an Atkins bar and some pork rinds. I also had a zone cookie with lunch and heavy whipping cream in my afternoon coffee. I waited until 4 to take my ex*lax which had me purging around seven. I think I had too many carbs yesterday, but not really sure. I wasn't paying attention. I did get a great workout in yesterday.

Today I am determined to limit my meals/snacks to my one hour window. I took a 25 minute walk and lifted weights today. I am just feeling kind of blah...achy, extremely tired and I got nauseated when I had my morning coffee. The flu is going around school, but I really hope I am not coming down with it...hard to tell if I am going into a flare or coming down with the flu. I had intended to hit it hard again today, but I am going to be lucky to make 7000 steps. I made 10,350 yesterday with 34 zone minutes. Today's 25 minute walk only gave me 4 zone minutes...watch is getting loose again so it was flopping around during the walk. This might be a low weight loss week...as long as it comes off!!

November 10, 2022

Back in ketosis, and I have been working out, even if I am not feeling great. I was determined to stick to the one meal a day, but I have kept to having a keto snack in the evening. It has kept me from binging. I am still using 2 laxatives a day, but now wait until 4 to take them so I purge when I am home. I sometimes feel dizzy in the morning, but I am now drinking at least half of a Powerade zero during the day and taking daily vitamins. The last two days I have been incredibly nauseated in the morning, but I think it is because I am taking the vitamins on an empty stomach. I am going to wait until after I eat tomorrow.

I have decided that this month I am focusing on fitness...taking Sunday as my rest day. October was all about figuring out the food situation and what I could eat, but now that I am 22.9 pounds down, I need to focus on burning the fat on my body. I am weighing daily and taking blood to monitor ketosis...one day out of it this week, but back in it as of today. I don't want the scales to go up so I need to keep in ketosis and add daily jogging/weights or walking/weights. Some days I might change it up and add dancing/aerobics. I took a picture at work today and I can see a difference in my face shape from the picture taken in August. My face and neck are becoming more narrow and my eyes are not as squinty/puffy when I smile. 

23 pounds is a big deal and I need to celebrate that, while also keeping in mind that I still have 76.2 pounds to lose to be where I want to be. I have 2 weeks left to lose the remaining 7 pounds to make my six week challenge goal of losing thirty pounds...I am going to be working out like a fiend!

November 28, 2022

I am really not good at updating this page. Mainly, because there is not much to report and I don't want to bore anyone...including myself!

After having a period for the first time in a year and a half, my weight fluctuated. I dropped the water weight pretty quickly, only to actually start gaining when I began to work out heavily. I'm not sure what that is all about! I added in a snack in am and one in pm, so I got off my OMAD routine...big mistake!

I am still down as of this morning...of course, I wasn't able to work out last week due to side effects from my covid booster, then work being done on the house, so weight kind of straightened out. My jeans are too loose, but my body won't fit into the next size down, so I am in that in between depressing state!

I got out of ketosis Thanksgiving day due to eating some dressing...it was worth it! I made asparagus risotto, sugar free cranberry sauce and a pumpkin cheesecake torte as my contributions to dinner.  Starting today, my goal is to get back to my OMAD routine. I didn't make it to the 30 pound weight loss...let's face it, I did everything wrong and I know it. I messed with what was working. The working out was a good addition, but I wasn't ready to get off the OMAD formula. My next goal will begin on December 1 and will end on December 31. I am giving myself 31 days to reach a total weight loss of 45 pounds. As of this morning, I am down 22.8. I will have 31 days to lose an additional 22.2 pounds and hopefully get into the smaller jeans I purchased over Thanksgiving.

I have been maintaining 2 laxatives a day, only going up to 3 one day last week. Had a painful side effect from them last week, but all is well as of today!

That's about all for today. I will be eating a fajita at lunch time. I left my half and half at home, so I won't be adding that to my coffee during my lunch hour. I did bring a keto cookie for dessert, and will be adding a small side salad to my lunch. I plan to eat between 11:15 and 12:15 today. I also plan to get a 20 minute walk/jog in this evening when I get home from work.

November 30, 2022

I end the month more or less where I started. I only lost 5+ pounds this month, but I haven't been doing the right things. Since my covid booster, my hormones are out of whack and I am having hot flashes out the whazoo! I am also not feeling 100% and I haven't been motivated to work out.

I am still not back into ketosis because I am still snacking at night. I am not eating too many carbs...just not fasting like I should. My new goal begins tomorrow...